november 30
nothing
can puzzle me
more than why i do my homework.
while we're there, why am i even
in school?

november 29 seriously, the swat team showed up
hostage
crisis in the
building next door brings an
unexpected twist to brooklyn
living.

november 28 on being honest with holidays
twenty
four years old and
still i wonder: am i
really related to every
one here?

november 27 on driving late from brooklyn
time to
leave. two am.
new jersey awaits an
hour past the sad hugs we all just
gave up.

on aaron cometbus's pecs

i'm so
sick of in-shape
punks. aren't we all in this
together? why let myself go
alone?

on love zombies

i fear
that if i stop
thinking about you all
the time, you'll waltz back tangibly
instead.

i can
not believe that
one year ago i was
on my way, moving to oakland.
mindfuck.

november 23 on at least not being tired anymore
thirteen
hours sleep might
finally catch me up,
but it's not long enough to fix
all else.

november 22 - on 20 minutes to breakfast tostadas and girltalk
not that
we weren't friends, but
i'm just so glad now that
brunch halfway only means going to
fort greene.

november 21
one of
'those moments' at
a party in brooklyn.
i know you're here to be seen; why
am i?

november 20
how much
can i really
spend on tights when people
keep dying? welcome to a new
crisis.

november 19
now that
you're twenty-four,
it's inevitable
that someday soon, just months, so shall
i be.

november 18
at year's
end when i look
back at all these obits
in a row, i will not know how
i lived.

november 17

KENNEALY, DONNA M.
Suddenly on November 17, 2008, age 31, of Cinnaminson, NJ.
Donna was an avid lover of books, music, poetry, writing, comics, British and Japanese culture, animals, all things quirky, Veganism and Morrissey.
She was the beloved daughter of Elaine M. (nee Carboni) Kennealy and the late James E. Kennealy, loving sister of Kerry T. (Dennis) Connor of Eagleville, PA, Christina (Jeffrey) Manuola of Sicklerville, NJ and Stacey E. Kennealy of Blue Bell, PA, dear aunt of Logan and Gavin.
Relatives, friends and fellow employees of Colonial Life are invited to attend Donna's Life Celebration Saturday10:00 am - 12:00 pm at SNOVER/GIVNISH OF CINNAMINSON, 1200 Route 130 North, followed by her Memorial Service 12:00 pm. Interment will be Private.
In lieu of flowers contributions in Donna's name to: Farm Sanctuary, PO Box 150, Watkins Glen, N.Y. 14891 or www.farmsanctuary. org/farm would be appreciated www.lifecelebration.com

do you have ghosts in yr home too?

november 16 on goodbyes
we hug,
say goodbye and
appreciate what will
come next for all of us, somewhere
distant.

november 15 on the ergs and hunchback calling it quits
after
these bruises heal,
all that's left: memories,
apologies, and notions of
great change.

november 14 on secret shows from secret bands that should have been better kept
well, well.
blake schwarzenbach
and aaron cometbus.
a dream come true? or just a sad
past-blast.

november 13 on every wall in the parlor
secrets
become the theme
to this, the last weekend
and final chapter to that part
of life.

wednesda yacatially

your tape
that i, sometime,
will fashion for you, at
sometime will make you rue the ver-
y day.

november 10, on drinking again
i miss
feeling vola
tile. stability is
overrated. someone re-break
my heart!

november 8
we all went to jamie's funeral way out, long island. after everyone came to greenpoint to drink it off, dance a little, remember good times. you said, "i think someone died, theyre all wearing black" and i wished your friend was dead and buried instead of mine so you would've known how fucking stupid you are.

november 7
please stop
dying. two deaths
in as many months is
just too much for anyone to
deal with.

november 6
James Douglas Ewing Jr.
EWING - James Douglas, Jr. "Jamie", of Islip, NY, passed away suddenly, on November 5, 2008. He was the beloved son of James and Maria, brother to Eric and Cassandra, brother-in-law to Elaine, and was also an adored grandson, nephew and cousin. Jamie was born on August 10, 1983. He lived a full life with passion for music, art, and travel. In his all too short time with us Jamie touched countless lives from California to Brooklyn, and leaves behind a wealth of love and affection with all who knew him.

november 4,5
i got
a little swept
up in this whole thing, but
when obama promised his girls
they would
take a
tiny puppy
to the white house with them,
i was glad i sent my vote in.
godspeed!

the burden of good performance

90
on a midterm
i thought i bombed. for the
first time, i feel obligated
upkeep.

november 2
jersey
city. pancake
breakfast burritos. no
tortilla. pancake in lieu of.
slow death.

november 1
worlds a-
fire is the
single best book i have
read about circus fires long
ago.

october 31
something
wicked this way
comes with gnashing teeth and
bleeding gums. and hey! a dog dressed
as bee!

october 30
okay.
my concession:
banksy's pet shop ended
up great. that's the last i'll speak of
him, though.

october 29
grandma,
you are so god
damn old today. how you
stay also so spry is a world
wonder.

october 28
midterm
break. take my
laundry to new jersey
and get fat on homecooked dinner,
desserts.

october 27
today
was my first test
in three years. it is now
too clear they should have been spent in
study.